Jenn and I have learned this so many times over in the eight months since graduation. Jenn, who expected to be living in the UK with her Air Force boyfriend and starting her graduate school journey, is now living in Montana, working as a substitute teacher, and planning a wedding. I expected to be working, paying my bills, and saving up to move 600 miles with my long-distance boyfriend, and instead I'm budgeting my way through a part-time job, living with my parents, and contemplating the insanity of getting my MFA while my guy is working three time zones from me.
It's a hard thing when plans take a nose dive. Especially for new grads.
I had a professor (also named Jen) who used to call all of the anguish, anger, pain, hurt, fear, and nameless emotion "mess." It's probably the most accurate term I have ever had for that vortex of feelings that swirls inside - it feels messy. Professor Jen was always trying to help me appreciate the mess, to see the beauty in the mess, but I never believed her. I don't like being out of control, I don't like when people see me crack, and I don't like not knowing what is coming next.
Jenn and I are learning. We're trying to get a handle on making the best of life while we navigate all of this, and we're actually coming up with some good ideas. This blog is about our journey, and our learning. We hope you'll join us.
-Sarah
It's a hard thing when plans take a nose dive. Especially for new grads.
I had a professor (also named Jen) who used to call all of the anguish, anger, pain, hurt, fear, and nameless emotion "mess." It's probably the most accurate term I have ever had for that vortex of feelings that swirls inside - it feels messy. Professor Jen was always trying to help me appreciate the mess, to see the beauty in the mess, but I never believed her. I don't like being out of control, I don't like when people see me crack, and I don't like not knowing what is coming next.
Jenn and I are learning. We're trying to get a handle on making the best of life while we navigate all of this, and we're actually coming up with some good ideas. This blog is about our journey, and our learning. We hope you'll join us.
-Sarah
